What Am I Thinking

When I graduated from High school I knew that college was not for me.

School was a struggle for me and I was glad to have it done and didn't want to torture myself with it anymore. Especially if I had to pay for it and be disappointed with myself all over again.

I started working, I was a nanny and a sweatshop worker. This is why now, I am a mom and why I sew so fast. Today I got a call that I thought might be coming. The little girl I used to nanny for is getting married on Tuesday, yep in SIX days.  I had talked to her mom a couple of weeks ago and she was telling me how tense she was that Lindsey still hadn't found a dress.

This is now where my super speed sewing is going to be tested. I am going fabric shopping in the morning to get the materials for her wedding dress. I think it is kind of funny that the little girl that I made Christmas dresses for is now going to get a wedding dress from me also.

I think it should be pretty easy. Big tulle skirt and a fitted bodice with 3/4 length sleeves and no train. My only hesitation is the fact that I sew little girl dresses and NOT wedding dresses.

I am not a tailor, I do NOT do alterations, (you can ask anyone who has wanted me to hem pants over the years) and I hate dealing with linings especially the ones that you have to hand sew down. I am sure in the end I will be grateful for the experience. I am sure I will love the fact that I was the one that made her dreams come true for her dress. I am sure I will be there fitting a dress to the same body that I use to kiss good night, and be blown away by this full circle moment.

But right now I am tired, I still have one more skirt to make before tomorrow night, when the big girls leave to go to Disneyland with Grandma and Papa.  It is the most important skirt, it is the Cinderella skirt after all. I was hoping to get my spring cleaning done before Grandma brings the girls back. Finish sewing baby sister's summer dresses. Sleep in, enjoy just the little girls, clean the big girls room while they are gone, I am sure they wouldn't notice that everything was gone right. Now my next five days are going to be consumed with dress sewing and trying my hardest NOT to mess it up.

Anyway if you don't hear from me, know that I really wanted to post the Disney skirts, they are really cute and you would have loved them I promise.  But that is going to have to wait until after Tuesday.

So if you have a spare minute could you take a second and say a little prayer for me. I really am going to need all the help I can get. If you are close I will take babysitting, house cleaning and meals.

Just saying.